Towards the end of last year my ex and I started to talk a bit more, nothing in it but he made a statement at one point that now we had gotten through the hard part we would be friends for life. I even started to think we might be, we were able to hold a conversation without me either wanting to snog his face off or cry. Well it would appear that he played me for a bit of a fool!
His lovely sister who I've known as long as i've known him is getting married this year, we still catch up, get drunk, have a laugh and get on. Sadly last time I saw her she revealed she wasn't able to invite me to her evening reception at the request of the bro (the ex).
Apparently he wouldn't be able to relax, i'm rather disappointed at this. I feel like i've been a complete fool thinking that we could ever be friends, foolishly I thought we were grown ups now and considering all the hurt and pain he caused me last year I still have the good grace to speak to him and hold an adult conversation. I've helped him out with advice on various things and really thought we had gotten past all the 'issues'. Evidently not!
I'm not interested in going to the wedding to make him feel awkward or to see my 'competition' squirm - she won. She got everything I ever wanted in speed of lightening time, and now I can't even celebrate a good friend of mines wedding because of this.
I've tried to call and text him to discuss the reasons why he has requested my presence not to be there but rather conveniently he has now chosen to ignore my calls. I feel a bit sad that he thinks it's ok to pick up a friendship with me just when he needs help with something, if this isn't the case it's certainly how it feels right now.
I really don't know what happened and why he has turned sour grapes on me, but what I do know is that sometimes he takes an interest in the blog and reading about what a miserable love life he has caused me. I'm hoping he might read this one and just maybe understand that whilst I am still on my own it's not because i'm still lusting after him, it's because i've made a choice and not just settled because I feel I have to.
Perhaps then he might rethink his decision........................
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